Birthday thoughts

42 years old today.....my day started at 3:16 am ironically when I woke up for a moment to notice I had a text message from my oldest son. He sent me birthday wishes at 12:01 am and I was so impressed....then I really read message and it said "HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!" that little turkey. When I woke up for the day I had hopes for balloons, someone to make me breakfast, a day off and to feel relaxed. Instead I awoke to still feeling angry at a fight I had with my husband, no one to make me breakfast, and NO BALLOONS!

I did get great messages from my daughter and my youngest son said happy birthday this morning when he got up.

I got up and made myself a cup of hot chocolate (the way my mom used to and some toast loaded with butter...again the way my mom used to...and enjoyed every last drop as I dipped my toast in the cocoa and it was yummy. I then got dressed and attempted to take my son to school and got angry at him as I drove. After I dropped him off my heart sank and I wanted to turn around and go back to school, find him in class and give him a hug to tell him I loved him and was very sorry.....I had to settle for a text message to him instead. I just knew if something happened to me that was not what I wanted him to remember of me.

After arriving at work I got a wonderful phone call from my parents wishing me a happy birthday! I love them so much and wish I lived close enough to see them every day.

Around 11:00 am I got a dozen red roses delivered to my office. They were from my husband and daughter. :)

I am excited to see where this birthday ends up :)